jesus this is sick even for me

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apiphile Aug 10, 2014 09:53

My subconscious heard my plea for less awful dreams and responded with one in which I killed five men, graphically, including one where I hacked off his face with a small knife; where I was subject to not one but two back-alley abortions, including in the second one an abrupt vaginal exam which I distinctly remember FEELING; a continual flip- ( Read more... )

dreams, jesus this is sick even for me

So what happened was I forced Jess to watch Manhunter and then some of this fell out

apiphile Apr 15, 2013 14:27

Talking about Hannibal on NBC and kind of... went from there?

( not really spoilers, but DEFINITELY not brainsafe )

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[fic] People shouldn't use gifs it makes this happen

apiphile Sep 18, 2012 17:51

Title: A Little Knowledge
Fandom: Avengers (Movie)
Words: 10,600
Pairing/Characters: Loki/Odin, Loki/Thor
Warnings: Non-con, underage, just all of the trigger warnings ever.
Disclaimer: Marvel do not approve of this.
Notes: I wrote most of this today. At work. Where work wasn't happening.
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[fic] I have written 6,400 words today.

apiphile Feb 28, 2012 16:16

Title: Patience & Good Manners
Fandom: RocknRolla
Words: 7000
Pairing: Johnny/Archy
Warnings: I have just upended my Id into a Word Doc again. Just… frankly excessive quantities of blood.
Disclaimer: I am very sorry to Guy Ritchie about this.

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[fic] I really hope you like my Id

apiphile Feb 23, 2012 00:41

Title: The Spy Who Saw Light At The End Of The Tunnel
Fandom: TTSS
Pairing: Guillam/Tarr
Words: 11,800
Warnings: As with everything in this series of fics, violence and possible dub/non-con.
Disclaimer: Oh god John LeCarre I am so sorry.
Notes: Blame Jess and Holly-Who-Is-Now-Known-As-Omar ( Read more... )

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[fic] endless repeating earworm

apiphile Feb 09, 2012 02:10

Title: Our mother made us into swimmers
Fandom: Sherlock (BBC)
Words: 4,890
Pairing: Uh. Dunno. Make your own guesses.
Disclaimer: Property of the BBC/ACD, I am just obsessing over Mycroft.
Notes: Hopefully the last in the whole Mycroft series. Title from “Ways to Love” by Jason Webley.

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[fic] this series is called "Peter Guillam is in denial".

apiphile Feb 07, 2012 10:44

Title: The Spy Who Lost His Way
Fandom: TTSS
Words: 7,190
Pairing: Tarr/Guillam
Warnings: Violent sex things. Dub-con.
Disclaimer: all this jazz is the intellectual property of J-leCars, I’m just borrowing his characters so I can make them do dirty sex things.
Notes/Summary: Sequel to The Spy Who Got What He Deserved, If Not What He Wanted and The ( Read more... )

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[fic] OH LOOK IT'S MY ID

apiphile Feb 02, 2012 12:24

Title: The Spy Who Gave As Good As He Got (Or Worse)
Fandom: TTSS (film)
Words: 8,225
Pairing: Tarr/Guillam
Warnings: WOUNDFUCKING.
Disclaimer: Characters etc are the intellectual property of John LeCarré, I’m just getting my Id on them.
Notes/Summary: Sequel to “The Spy Who Got What He Deserved, If Not What He Wanted”. This is almost entirely just ( Read more... )

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[fic] It's bad to be crazy when your job is this delicate

apiphile Oct 04, 2011 21:29

Title: Once in a lifetime
Fandom: Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy (2011) / some book canon
Length: 9,800
Pairing: Ricki/Peter
Warnings: Oh, you know. Shooting and stuff.
Disclaimer: LeCarre's characters.
Notes: Fight Bingo [Sexual, Just Doing My Job, Public, Subtle - not quite a full row]. Thanks to inappropriately for help with translation (Ukrainian), to howifall for help ( Read more... )

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I am so glad there is no fandom for this fic because no one can tell me off for it

apiphile Oct 03, 2011 12:56

At work, have run out of work. Am writing terrible tortureporn at swear_jar via email ( Read more... )

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